I’m by myself and you would think
That things would be simpler now
I thought I would be freer to make
Decisions that only benefitted me
But it’s not that simple.
I don’t know if I am capable
Of making decisions that
Are best for me
Or if I’m making decisions
That will hurt me
I’m having fun
But at the same time
I don’t know if I’m pushing
Off neglected emotions
And just waiting for them to
Blow.
For fun is just fun
But I know I will always want
More than that
My fragile soul will always
Crave meaning in everything
Leaving things
Undetermined
Undecided and
Undefined
Worries me.
Because I don’t know if
All this fun will hurt me
Down the road
For nothing really is ever that
Simple.
(Thumbnail image by Priscila Barbosa)
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